Through My Mind

You think I’m fucking nice

Fuck you bitch; I’ll make you see me fucking twice.

How dare you walk by me and you don’t say hi

Will fuck you I wish you will just fucking die.

How dare you judge the things that I do

And how dare you judge the things that I don’t do.

You think you trust me, that I got your back

I don’t like you, I don’t love you, and this is not an act.

I’m saving you some time

So you can get on that fucking road and leave my stupid shit behind.

All I want is to be alone

You won’t even pick up the fucking phone.

Oh, did I get you by surprise

It’s not my fault you need to check your stupid retarded eyes.

I’m not your friend, not your pal, and I’m not your guardian

I’m not your savior, not your hero, and I’m not your champion.

I bet your wondering what all this shit is about

What? You don’t know I just want out.

Looking for Someone Sucks

I SIT BACK IN THIS CHAIR

AND WONDER IF ANYONE WILL CARE

YOU MAY ASK YOURSELF WHY?

YOU MAY NOT SEE IT, BUT INSIDE I WANT TO CRY

YESTERDAY I ASK THIS GIRL IF SHE WANTED TO GO OUT

SHE GOT UP WALK AWAY, TURN, AND SCREAM ‘NO’ REAL LOUD

HOW COULD SOMEONE SO BEAUTIFUL BE SO MEAN

I KNOW LIFE IS HARD, BUT THIS IS TOO EXTREME

I KNOW I’M NOT MR. PERFECT, NOR MR. MODEL

PLEASE LET ME GET DRUNK OFF THIS BOTTLE

MY FUTURE IS CLEAR I WILL LIVE A LONELY LIFE

I WILL NEVER HAVE SOMEONE TO CALL A WIFE.

Holding On

I try to tell you how I feel
But you think I'm not real

And I still don’t understand
you have my heart in your hand

I'm sick with this love flu
and I can’t find the way to tell you

I walk the streets alone
and I hate being on my own

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life

So Don’t try to run away
There’s many things I wanna say

I guess I'm just a fool
Since I keep holding on to you

Love So Great

The other day a man came up to me and asks

What’s this girl’s name that has u tight up in the past?

I look at him and ask how you can tell?

He smile and said “son let me tell you about a love so great that makes Angels get their wings like when they hear a ring from a bell”

This poor guy had his heart broken by four girls who he care so much about

Each girl took a piece of his heart as they ripped it out

He slept during the day and cry out those cold lonely nights

He cried even harder when he thought of his soon be wife who die and was his love at first sight

He ask the lord to take him since he doesn't have a heart to go on

But he went day by day and the pain was never gone

Soon all this change when this ten years younger woman came into his life

But he was scare that she would leave and stab him with a pretty big knife

It took some time for them to realize

That he was meant for her and she was meant for him as they look at each other’s eyes

At this point his heart started to grow back

And till this day she hasn’t given him a heart attack

The man looked at me and said “son it was fate”

Then he said “I saw it in the way she looked at me that she was the one and if you feel that passion then you too can have a love so great”

I felted encourage and said thank you but as I was walking away I turn to him and said her name is “Amanda”

He smile at me and said her name is “Liliana”

Time to Go

Today I woke up with a dark sky

I still remember the tears coming down your eye

I wanted to look into your eyes and hold your hand

You call me a boy, but I was trying to be a man

I should have not left you alone to be with him

Now it’s too late and my life feels very dim

That night I should have told you how I feel

Instead now my heart and love for you feels unreal

I wish you the very best in your life

I know one day you’ll make a man proud for being his wife

Some Friends

SHE BAGS HER THINGS AND SHE GOES

WHERE SHE’S GOING NO ONE REALLY KNOWS

SHE LEFT HER FRIENDS HANGING ON THE WALL

IT’S A CRIME NOT TO SAY GOODBYE, THAT SHOULD BE THE LAW

HIS OUTSIDE OF HIS ROOM NOT IN A GOOD MOOD

THINKING ABOUT THE THINGS HE DID, THAT WEREN'T TO GOOD

HIS FRIENDSHIP WENT DOWN THE DRAIN

FOR A WHILE IT DIDN'T STOP TO RAIN

HIS SITTING THERE REAL CONFUSE

HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE WANTS, OR WHAT TO CHOOSE

HE DOESN'T LOVE HER ENOUGH TO MARRY 

BUT IT’S TOO LATE TO SAY I’M SORRY

SHE CALLS ME UP REAL UPSET

TALKING ABOUT HER FRIEND SHE LOVES, BUT WON’T ACCEPT

SHE SAYS “HOW COULD SOMEONE BE SO MEAN”

I SAID, “THERE’S NO SOUL IN THIS WORLD THAT’S REALLY CLEAN”

IT’S BEEN MONTHS, AND HE STILL LOVES THIS GIRL

IT MAKES HIS HEAD SPIN AND SWIRL 

SHE BROKE HIS HEART AGAIN, AND AGAIN

STILL HE’LL LOVE HER UNTIL THE END.

The Very First Day

I loved you since the very first day

But you didn’t like me that way

Now I’m alone thinking about that way you are

I will never forget you as we grew so apart

I held you in my arms

We kiss and my heart was going off like an alarm

But you didn’t like me that way

Still I loved you since the very first day

I should of made love to you like there was no tomorrow

Instead I’m stuck here with this pain and sorrow

Since you didn’t like me that way

I will always love you since that very first day